12-2-9: holidays and prudence
Prudence is the idea of balancing both short term and long term goals within work so you can come out and play. The reading I pursued regarded the normal point of view. I.e. work now so you can indulge later. As useful and true as this sentiment is - I find myself frustratingly on the opposite side of the spectrum.
I feel like I limit my indulgence to an extreme measure. Balance has never been a strength of mine. I have always been passionate to the point of obsession. While in many cases, this is an asset. It is hard being a workaholic around the holidays.
This stems from my internal conflict between work and fun. I love everything about running/owning the rerouted co-op. I love all of my family and friends. I enjoy hard work (to the detriment of fun). I enjoy kicking it with my family and friends.
Maintaining separation between the two is a constant challenge. I find work bleeding into social interactions and visa versa. I am forced to assume that this is a good problem to have. Obsessed with work - yet, desperate to be a social butterfly. It makes for internal conflict - and physical exhaustion.
The key is not allowing either of my desires to override or imbalance the other. Schedule, schedule, schedule. Once, a boss told me I had to schedule a time to relax. I thought it was a joke. Clearly, I did not love the work. When you never clock out - when is the fun supposed to come?